"I don't remember,lighting this cigarette
And I don't remember,
if I'm here alone
or waiting for someone."
- Leonard Cohen
My final grades
92
88
86
81
81
69
when you try your hardest, but it's not good enough
My oh my
Expectation is the root of heartache - William Shakespeare
Yesterday, I was supposed to be getting my braces off. I was excited all week. I had 6 exams to get through until Saturday and in my mind, I was thinking, "Oh yeah, if I can make it through these exams, I'll be able to get my braces off!" Unfortunately, 15 minutes in the appointment; one of the assistants found out I had a tiny space between two of my top teeth on my right jaw. ARGH. Now I have to wear elastics AND wait 2 weeks for another assessment. And let's just SAY that when I pass the assessment, I'll have to wait another 2 weeks after that until I get my braces off.
BUT
if I was to fail that assessment, I probably be back to square one and get my braces off in september or something. I'm so impatient. I've had them on for 3 years + and it's just so annoying having them :/
And another here is yet another disappointment. My phone has been broken for a month now because I damaged the charging port on it. I was hoping that my family friend could fix my phone because I really liked my phone. But today, he wasn't able to do anything. The damage is done. it's so frustrating not having a phone.......................because.............
this grade 12 guy in my pe class gave me his number and told me to text him this summer. he's kinda cute and my friends have been urging me to give him a chance and try to get to know him. but i CAN'T BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE A GODDAMN PHONE.
WHAT DO I DO.
Labels: fk
When I'm About to Break - Vistee ft. Phantom
I haven't updated this blog since my trip to Vietnam last year. Well, I've decided to keep it active. Although I have tumblr, it's not really something I can use to post about my life. I only have 7 followers on here, and most of them I don't think are active anymore but whatever HAHA.
My grades currently:
93% Biology
89% English
86% Psychology
84% Chemistry
79% Math
69% Physics <- ohmigod.
AVG = 83%
My grades this year are terrible. Sometimes being in a linear school system sucks. Although I do have an extra day to work on my homework; I wouldn't have to visit the same boring class every single day. Sometimes it's overwhelming with the amount of tests I get in the same week. :<
OH WELL. I'll push it to grade 12, when I return to north surrey (to others dismay, yes I may return.) I do not want to concentrate so hard on friends and all that stuff. That was so grade 10. Ever since I've gone to sands, i've began to realize the true nature of the people I used to be surrounded by. It's like that saying, "Once you see the flaws in your friends, you'll realize you have the exact same flaws." Ever since I don't see my regular friends since grade 8/9on a regular basis, you start to see some of them for what they really are. It's actually shocking to know I used to be like that too. Naive. Backstabbing. Manipulative. Childish. All the flaws I can see in everyone. The flaws I USED (or may still) to have. I'll still remain friends with these certain individuals. I still consider all of them my friends. I can never dislike or hate any of them. However, in the back of my head I know it'll never be the same again. No more of those daily text messages, long night conversations, sleepovers, etc.
I don't think I've gotten "wiser" or mature in any way. It's more like, when you step outside of the room, you start to see the chaos inside.
It is certainly a pity though.
Comment if you have anything to say or ask :)
School suck shit
The title says it all. I don't like this school. Why?
1. It's all white people (some brown). There's literally like no asians. Well they're some, but not that much. All the white people are either party/preppy type or the skater ones. And a lot of them aren't that friendly so I'm a loner in my classes/and lunch.
2. It's a linear school year, so there's 8 subjects. 4 for one day, and then the other 4 a next day. It means I have to spend a whole year with these assholes sob sob.
3. So I managed today to get some friends. This one chinese girl named J. Well we're friends and we talk a bit in class. So I asked her today if I could hang out with her at lunch. She looked at me, and said, "Oh ask V." (this other girl). so clearly, it shows that she didn't want to hang out with me. But I went and cock blocked them anyways, and met these 2 japanese guys.
^I'll probably hang out with them for only a week and ditch and hang by myself at the library, which is like the loser area = equivalent to sky bridge
4. THE SCHOOL IS SHIT ASS SMALL. THEY'RE CAFETERIA IS HALF THE SIZE OF THE SMALL GYM.
To conclude, I want to move back to NS. Probably will for grade 12.
ha
sometime's it's good to lose people. it shows what a lousy scum they really were.
People
Sometimes, people can easily just piss me off. Even if they don't mean it, they're actions are annoying. Like when someone is indecisive and can't make decisions. I ask them to make one small decision and they can't decide. "Wanna go to the mall tomorrow?" "I don't know." "What do you want for your birthday?" "idk. idc." MAKE UP YOUR MIND.
Or when someone says "Idk. Idc." Oh god this is one of my biggest pet peeves. I absolutely cringe when someone says "I don't care." I just hate it. I mean, if someone says trash about, feel free to say it. But if it's me asking for your opinion or something, and they say "Oh I don't really care." Jesus. Sometimes I wish I was born a cat.
waaa
omg super junior. i've become an official ELF. need to buy their album T^T oh and beast's album too. sungmin is my favourite hehe new bias ;) right katie? ;)
anyways school sucks. getting 85% need an A UGHHHHHHHHH
how is everyone?